wow, i found this blog again. i haven't updated this thing in a while. since the beginning of march. a lot has happened since then. i've had my birthday, gone through a relationship, totally fucked up my life, and the such. and all that crap that's happened in the past month has just made me drop. i'm in this fucking hole that i won't be able to get out of. i'm such a weak person, i shouldn't even live. i have no control over my life. yea, i'm just going to end that there...